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mammonspeanut · 5 years ago

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Hey guys,

as you all may know I have been struggling mentally a lot lately and not just with my fiction but also with university. I just am not made out to study online, maybe I am just not made out to study at all...

I don’t know what to do though .... I am just stressed...

I need to take a break from this blog;blog; I am however still available to talk but everything is just so much... and I don’t know how to deal with it and it’s tapping into my biggest fears and I don’t know what to do or where to start.

Stay safe, take care of yourselves.

-xoxo

#I feel like a faliure #I don't know what I thought going back to univeristy at my age #exams start in 2 weeks and I have done nothing #and if I don't pass certain exams by the 3 semester I have to do something else #but I don't know what else #fucking failing at life and i have nowhere to go to #the moment I wake up and look at my emails i stress so hard #maybe i am supposed to work some job and just rot there #i just wished my brain would do what it should #i can't rememeber shit for shit #i understand everything but i just cant remember it for an exam #my doctors are no help #i don't know what to do anymore #maybe I should have stayed in my shit life back then #idk #I just know that I am going to fail and stay a failure and that shit scares me #how dumb could i have been thinking I was made out to go bac to univerity at 27 #now 28 and one of the oldest in my semester and I look like and idiot #idk ..#I have to go do something for lab today but #all I want to do is stay at home and cry..#i haven't cried in forever and everything is just bubbling over #all of my fears and everything that I am trying to supresse and it's so tireing #I just feel like giving up...#Maybe I should just give up #i don't know...#yall are so sweet for sticking around and dealting with me #sorry for venting in the tags but I feel dumb adding it to the post..#I don't usually show my feelings so #the tags are the closest you guys can get to whats going on in my head

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